Sophia Beech

2007 - 2007
LocationStoke On Trent
Age0
Cause of DeathStill Birth
Date of Birth18/11/2007
Date of Death18/11/2007
Visitors1,483 since 18/11/2008
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~ Sophia Beech ~


Born Sleeping on 18th November 2007
Precious Baby Girl of Louise & Ben Beech



I found out I was pregnant with “Nissi” when we were on holiday in Cyprus with our friends &
most of Ben’s family to watch his brother get married. We were staying near Nissi Beach so for the
first 20 weeks Sophia was “Nissi Beech” because that’s where we found out & also because her
surname was going to be Beech anyway, so we thought it was quite funny.

I did the test & straight away a pink line appeared (no idea why it was pink & not blue I’d never
seen one before or since & wondered if that meant I was having a girl?). I was so excited I ran out
& tried to mouth to Ben that it was positive but one of his friends was in the hotel room with us so
was more like me just jumping around then rushing out the door like a mad woman & ran down the
corridor to Ben’s brother’s room to tell them. I rang my mum to tell her the news as I didn't
want her to be the last one to know. Then we told everyone who we were on holiday with.

When we got home the weeks soon went & before we knew it it was time for the 20 week scan. We had
decided we wanted to know the sex of the baby as we're notvery patient & couldn't wait to start
getting things ready for our baby. When the sonographer said it was a girl I was gobsmacked, I'd
always imagined having a little boy first but I was so happy & couldn't wait to start getting loads
of pink & frilly clothes & things for her nursery. I didn't waste much time & before I knew it her
wardrobe was full, she'd got a pink pushchair & pink accesories for her room. I remember pushing the
pushchair around my mums livingroom, trying to imagine my baby in there but for some reason I just
couldn't picture her, there was a baby in my mind but she had no face.

At 28 weeks I started with symptoms of pre eclampsia & was admitted to hospital.I had another scan
while I was in to check her growth etc & on the scan she was lying face up with her foot in her
mouth, she looked so happy, I used to put my foot in my mouth when I was a baby & couldn't believe
she was doing it aswell, I could tell she was going to be like a mini me.

At the weekend a doctor came round to check me & said I could go home again but needed to go back
the following week.

A week to the day I was discharged a midwife rang me to say that they had "found" a urine result
that I had done the day I was discharged & needed to go to progress straight away. As soon as I put
the phone down I threw up, I don't know what it was but something inside told me that I was going to
get there & they were going to tell me that my baby was dead. I calmed myself down & we went to the
hospital, I waited for what seemed like forever, still with this niggly thought that something was
wrong, then eventually a doctor came to me & told me to go through to one of the beds to be
assessed. I asked her if she would put the heart monitor on the baby because I was panicking that
something was wrong. She got a midwife to do it, there was nothing, the doctor tried & there was
still nothing, so then she said she was going to get a scanner to see if she could see the baby's
heart beat. As soon as she turned the monitor on I started shaking I could tell before she even
started trying look for a heartbeat that Sophia had died she was just lying there, not like the scan
in hospital where she looked so happy. Sophia was born on 18th November at 05.17am & weighed 2 lbs
13 oz. We were both absolutely heart broken, Ben's reaction was instant & he started crying but I
couldn't I was just numb. I was numb all the time I was giving birth & for the few days that I had
to stay in after. I didn't hold Sophia. I don't know if it was because I didn't believe what was
happening or because I thought If I held her I'd never be able to let her go but I regret it so much
now. I'm scared she thinks I didn't love her but I loved her so much I couldn't bear to even look at
her properly. I managed to give her a kiss on her forehead before she was taken to the morgue but
that was all.

I finally broke down when I got in the car to go home & all Id got was a little box with some
photo's, hand & footprints, a teddy and a tape measure that had been used to measure her. I got home
& looked at the photo's for the first time. She was so beautiful, I wish I could have had more time
with her then I might have plucked up the courage to give her a cuddle & tell her how beautiful she
was & how much I loved her.

Nothing will ever be the same again, I miss her everyday & will never ever forget her.


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for you Darling girl

To Sophia's Mummy and Daddy and family,
So very sorry for your loss. Your story touched my heart. I hope you dont mind but I have added Sophia to My Garden, and will light candles for her. This poem, I didnt write it, but I think you will identify with it. I hope its ok for me to write on your beautiful girl's page.

I can’t tell you how I’m feeling
The words are so hard to find
Thinking of all that could have been
But “I’ll never” comes to mind
I’ll never feel your hug
I’ll never dry your tears
I’ll never hear you laugh
Or watch you through the years
I’ll never brush your hair
I’ll never touch your face
I’ll never hold you tight
When things don’t go your way
I’ll never hold your hand
I’ll never watch you sleep
I’ll never have your pictures
Forever mine to keep
I’ll never hear you cry
I’ll never watch you play
I’ll never kiss your "owie"
And make it go away
I’ll never see you smile
I’ll never have a choice
I’ll never hear I love you
In my Sophia's voice
I’ll never know your smell
I’ll never feel your love
I’ll never stop hurting
When you’re all I think of
You were taken away so suddenly
Although pain is nothing new
I’ll always have endless “I’ll never’s”
When it comes to you.

with love from Claire xxx.

Claire Inv 1 week ago

My Mum, she tells a lot of lies,
She never did before.
But from now until she dies,
She'll tell a whole lot more.

Ask my Mum how she is
And because she can't explain,
She will tell a little lie
Because she can't describe the pain.

Ask my Mum how she is,
She'll say "I'm alright."
If that's the truth, then tell me,
why does she cry each night ?

Ask my Mum how she is,
She seems to cope so well.
She didn't have a choice you see,
Nor the strength to yell.

Ask my Mum how she is,
"I'm fine, I'm well, I'm coping."
For God's sake Mum, just tell the truth,
Just say your heart is broken.

She'll love me all her life,
I loved her all of mine.
But if you ask her how she is,
She'll lie and say she's fine.

I am Here in Heaven.
I cannot hug from here.
If she lies to you don't listen,
Hug her and hold her near.

On the day we meet again,
We'll smile and I'll be bold.
I'll say, "You're lucky to get in here, Mum,
With all the lies you told!"

Louise Beech (Mummy) 1 week ago

I had a little Baby Girl,
I never brought you home,
I have no little hands to hold,
No pretty hair to comb,
Now my dreams are all I have,
Of how you would've grown,
The places I'd have taken you,
The LOVE you would have known...

Louise Beech (Mummy) 1 week ago

ribute Is For This Weekend

Candles Will Be Lit Again
As Usual On Sunday For Monday


MESSAGE FOR MY FAMILY FROM HEAVEN


To My Dearest Family,
Some things I'd like to say.
But first of all, to let you know,
That I arrived okay.

I'm writing this from heaven.
Here I dwell with God above.
Here, there's no more tears of sadness;
Here is just eternal love.

Please do not be unhappy
Just because I'm out of sight.
Remember that I am with you
Every morning, noon and night.

That day I had to leave you
When my life on earth was through.
God picked me up and hugged me
And He said, "I welcome you.

It's good to have you back again,
You were missed while you were gone.
As for your dearest family,
They'll be here later on.

There's so much that we have to do,
To help our mortal man."
God gave me a list of things,
That he wished for me to do.

And foremost on the list,
Was to watch and care for you.
And when you lie in bed at night
The day's chores put to flight.

God and I are closest to you....
In the middle of the night.
When you think of my life on earth,
And all those loving years.

Because you are only human,
They are bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry:
It does relieve the pain.

Remember there would be no flowers,
Unless there was some rain.
I wish that I could tell you
All that God has planned.

If I were to tell you,
You wouldn't understand.
But one thing is for certain,
Though my life on earth is o'er.

I'm closer to you now,
Than I ever was before.
There are many rocky roads
Ahead of you and many hills to climb;

But together we can do it
By taking one day at a time.
It was always my philosophy
And I'd like it for you too;

That as you give unto the world,
The world will give to you.
If you can help somebody
Who's in sorrow and pain;

Then you can say to God at night......
"My day was not in vain."
And now I am contented....
That my life was worthwhile.

Knowing as I passed along the way
I made somebody smile.
So if you meet somebody
Who is sad and feeling low;

Just lend a hand to pick him up,
As on your way you go.
When you're walking down the street
And you've got Me on your mind;

I'm walking in your footsteps
Only half a step behind.
And when it's time for you to go....
From that body to be free.

Remember you're not going.....
You're coming here to Me.


MISS ME..... BUT LET ME GO

We've known lots of pleasure,
At times endured pain,,
We've lived in the sunshine,
And walked in the rain. ,

But now we're separated .
And for a time apart,,
But I am not alone- ,
You're forever in my heart.,

Death always seems so sudden, ,
And it is always sure,,
But what is often forgotten-,
It is not without a cure.,

There may be times you miss me, ,
I sort of hope you do,,
But smile when you think of me,,
For I'll be waiting here for you.

Now there's many things for you to do,,
And lots of ways to grow,,
So get busy, be happy, and live your life,,
Miss me, but let me go.


MY FRIEND I CARE

Don’t tell me that you understand.
Don’t tell me that you know.
Don’t tell me that I will survive,
How I will surely grow.

Don’t come at me with answers
That can only come from me.
Don’t tell me how my grief will pass,
That I will soon be free.

Accept me in my ups and downs.
I need someone to share.
Just hold my hand and let me cry
And say, “My friend, I care"


Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela(Christopher-John Rowe)Mum

Marie-Angela Rowe February 13, 2009

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Senga Kerr December 11, 2008

you are in my thoughts, sweet dreams little angel. IT is devastating to lose such a precious little angel so early in life. Sophia knows you love her dearly as you carried her all those months with love.
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Claire Ward November 19, 2008

Mum I'm an Angel now
My spirit will be free
I'm an Angel now in heaven
So please don't cry for me

I was choosen by our Lord above
And now I'm in his care
Whenever you need me
Just look inside yor heart
I promise I'll be there

No one can ever take away
Our bond with one another
For I'll always be your precious child
As you'll always be my mother

So if you cannot find your way
Or the road home seems far
Just look up to the heavens
And I'll be your guiding star

Mum I'm an Angel now
My spirit will be free
I'm an Angel now in heaven
Theres no need to cry for me xxx xxx xxx xxx

Jessica Scialla November 18, 2008

An angel opened up a book to record your babys birth, She looked down, and closed that book and said "shes simply to beautiful for earth"

RIP xxx

Chelsea Potts November 18, 2008

so sorry

im so sorry for the loss of your beutiful darling daughter im sure shes giving you angel hugs and kisses my son brandon was also stillborn 7-1-98 and my hearts still broken our little angels will never ever be forgotten will always be remembered every minuite of every day their memories shall live in our hearts forever take care love ruth if you want to talk im here for you xx

Brandons Mummy November 18, 2008

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