Sophia Beech

2007 - 2007
LocationStoke On Trent
Age0
Cause of DeathStill Birth
Date of Birth18/11/2007
Date of Death18/11/2007
Visitors1,878 since 18/11/2008
Creator


~ Sophia Beech ~


Born Sleeping on 18th November 2007
Precious Baby Girl of Louise & Ben Beech



I found out I was pregnant with β€œNissi” when we were on holiday in Cyprus with our friends & most of Ben’s family to watch his brother get married. We were staying near Nissi Beach so for the first 20 weeks Sophia was β€œNissi Beech” because that’s where we found out & also because her surname was going to be Beech anyway, so we thought it was quite funny.

I did the test & straight away a pink line appeared. I was so excited!! we had decided that we were going to try for a baby when we got back from Cyprus so I was gobsmacked that it had happened already.

When we got home the weeks soon went & before we knew it it was time for the 20 week scan. We had decided we wanted to know the sex of the baby as we're not very patient & couldn't wait to start getting things ready for our baby. When the sonographer said it was a girl I was gobsmacked, I'd always imagined having a little boy first but I was so happy & couldn't wait to start getting loads of pink & frilly clothes & things for her nursery. I didn't waste much time & before I knew it her wardrobe was full, she'd got a pink pushchair & pink accesories for her room. I remember pushing the pushchair around my mums livingroom, trying to imagine my baby in there but for some reason I just couldn't picture her, there was a baby in my mind but she had no face.

At 28 weeks I started with symptoms of pre eclampsia & was admitted to hospital.I had another scan while I was in to check her growth etc & on the scan she was lying face up with her foot in her mouth, she looked so happy, I used to put my foot in my mouth when I was a baby & couldn't believe she was doing it aswell, I could tell she was going to be like a mini me.

At the weekend a doctor came round to check me & said I could go home again but needed to go back the following week.

A week to the day I was discharged a midwife rang me to say that they had "found" a urine result that I had done the day I was discharged & needed to go to progress straight away. As soon as I put the phone down I threw up, I don't know what it was but something inside told me that I was going to get there & they were going to tell me that my baby was dead. I calmed myself down & we went to the hospital, I waited for what seemed like forever, still with this niggly thought that something was wrong, then eventually a doctor came to me & told me to go through to one of the beds to be assessed. I asked her if she would put the heart monitor on the baby because I was panicking that something was wrong. She got a midwife to do it, there was nothing, the doctor tried & there was still nothing, so then she said she was going to get a scanner to see if she could see the baby's heart beat. As soon as she turned the monitor on I started shaking I could tell before she even started trying look for a heartbeat that Sophia had died she was just lying there, not like the scan in hospital where she looked so happy. Sophia was born on 18th November at 05.17am & weighed 2 lbs 13 oz. We were both absolutely heart broken, Ben's reaction was instant & he started crying but I couldn't I was just numb. I was numb all the time I was giving birth & for the few days that I had to stay in after. I didn't hold Sophia. I don't know if it was because I didn't believe what was happening or because I thought If I held her I'd never be able to let her go but I regret it so much now. I'm scared she thinks I didn't love her but I loved her so much I couldn't bear to even look at her properly. I managed to give her a kiss on her forehead before she was taken to the morgue but that was all.

I finally broke down when I got in the car to go home & all Id got was a little box with some photo's, hand & footprints, a teddy and a tape measure that had been used to measure her. I got home & looked at the photo's for the first time. She was so beautiful, I wish I could have had more time with her then I might have plucked up the courage to give her a cuddle & tell her how beautiful she was & how much I loved her.

Nothing will ever be the same again, I miss her everyday & will never ever forget her.

Sophia has a little brother now called Callum, after being induced & having to wait 2 days for him to finally arrive he was delivered by the same midwife that delivered Sophia exactly a year to the day that she was buried. I think this was Sophia's way of showing us that she knows I still love & miss her more than anything & she wanted us to be happier with Callum

Gifts

Tributes

A Birthday In Heaven - by Kris Smith

I heard you crying yesterday,
And felt your heart-sent love.
So I’m sending you this message
Now, from Heaven up above.

You’re wondering if I’ll celebrate
My Birthday (way up here).
I know you’re missing me today
I feel your essence near.

God planned a special day for me,
He told me with a wink.
He’d ordered me a special cake
(It’s Angel food, I think).

Balloons will fill the streets for me,
They float up through the clouds.
And we have lots of friends up here
That make us laugh out loud.

There is a Birthday carousel,
Jewelled horses ride the wind,
With music playing, oh so sweet…
The magic never ends.

I’ve made so many friends, you see
We laugh and play and sing.
We ride our bikes and play jump rope
And sleep in Angel’s wings.

We’ll have our cake and ice cream
And open gifts - SURPRISE!
But we don’t blow out our candles here
Instead, they light the skies.

With love from your little Angel XX

Joanne Mum To Alex And Ciara

November 18, 2010

Born Asleep - by Unknown Author

“Born Asleep" - such a beautiful phrase,
Always touches me to the core.
The broken cries of a Mother's heart
When it just can't take anymore.

I open my heart, one Mum to another,
So you never lose your hope,
That although it gets no easier,
I promise you'll learn to cope.

Remember your Angel is sleeping
In a world much kinder than ours
And will always be there to hold your hand
Even in your darkest hours.

My own little Angel will keep an eye,
And play with yours in their park.
But you must find your love and strength,
And feed your own little spark.

You'll never be alone my friend,
I will always understand.
If the tides loom up to swallow you,
Just reach out and grab my hand.

Joanne Mum To Alex And Ciara

November 18, 2010

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SOPHIA

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Birthday Remembrance
Thinking of you on your birthday Sophia
But that is nothing new
For no day dawns and no day ends
Without a thought of you.

We cannot send a birthday card,
Your hand we cannot touch,
But God will take our greetings
To the one we love so much.

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bigs hugs from me to you and your family
and friends that you miss you ever day but
in our hearts forever you will not be forgotin
all my love hugs and xxxx from me Sylvie
mommy of Samantha Belanger and
Granddaughter of Albert and Marie-Jeanne
Belanger take care bye for now.
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Sylvie Belanger

November 18, 2010

BIG HUGS SOPHIA

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β‹±β™°β‹° Angel Day β‹±β™°β‹°

β‹±β™°β‹° Your Angel Day in Heaven β‹±β™°β‹°

β‹±β™°β‹° Many tears will fall for you β‹±β™°β‹°

β‹±β™°β‹° You touched so many loving hearts β‹±β™°β‹°

β‹±β™°β‹° There’s so many missing you β‹±β™°β‹°

β‹±β™°β‹° As you now live in paradise β‹±β™°β‹°

β‹±β™°β‹° Its Heaven up above stay β‹±β™°β‹°

β‹±β™°β‹° Close to all your loved β‹±β™°β‹°

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β‹±β™°β‹° miss and love β‹±β™°β‹°
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β‹±β™°β‹° bigs hugs from me to you and your β‹±β™°β‹°

β‹±β™°β‹° family and friends that you miss you ever day β‹±β™°β‹°

β‹±β™°β‹° but in our hearts forever you will not be β‹±β™°β‹°

β‹±β™°β‹° forgoten you take care love from me β‹±β™°β‹°

β‹±β™°β‹° Sylvie mommy of Samantha β‹±β™°β‹°

β‹±β™°β‹° Belanger hugs and XXXX β‹±β™°β‹°

β‹±β™°β‹° bye for now good β‹±β™°β‹°

β‹±β™°β‹° night β‹±β™°β‹°

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♥ ♥ ♥ Angel Day bigs hugs from me to you and your family and friends that you miss you ever day but in our hearts forever take care love you bye for now hugs love from me.♥ ♥ ♥

Sylvie Belanger

November 18, 2010

Precious Child by Karen Taylor Good

In my dreams, you are alive and well
Precious child, precious child
In my mind, I see you clear as a bell
Precious child, precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart, there is hope
'Cause you are with me still

In my heart, you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart

In my plans, I was the first to leave
Precious child, precious child
But in this world, I was left here to grieve
Precious child, my precious child

In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart there is hope
And you are with me still

In my heart you live on
Always there, never gone
Precious child, you left too soon,
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart

God knows I want to hold you,
See you, touch you
And maybe there's a heaven
And someday I will again
Please know you are not forgotten until then

In my heart you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart

Caroline Ramshaw

May 14, 2010

A song from Pocohontas x

If I never knew you
If I never felt this love
I would have no inkling of
How precious life can be

And if I never held you
I would never have a clue
How at last I'd find in you
The missing part of me

In this world so full of fear
Full of rage and lies
I can see the truth so clear
In your eyes
So dry your eyes

And I'm so grateful to you
I'd have lived my whole life through
Lost forever
If I never knew you

If I never knew you
I'd be safe but half as real
Never knowing I could feel
A love so strong and true

I'm so grateful to you
I'd have lived my whole life through
Lost forever
If I never knew you
xxxxxx

Gemma Hawkes (GTS Friend)

December 6, 2009

for you Darling girl

To Sophia's Mummy and Daddy and family,
So very sorry for your loss. Your story touched my heart. I hope you dont mind but I have added Sophia to My Garden, and will light candles for her. This poem, I didnt write it, but I think you will identify with it. I hope its ok for me to write on your beautiful girl's page.

I can’t tell you how I’m feeling
The words are so hard to find
Thinking of all that could have been
But “I’ll never” comes to mind
I’ll never feel your hug
I’ll never dry your tears
I’ll never hear you laugh
Or watch you through the years
I’ll never brush your hair
I’ll never touch your face
I’ll never hold you tight
When things don’t go your way
I’ll never hold your hand
I’ll never watch you sleep
I’ll never have your pictures
Forever mine to keep
I’ll never hear you cry
I’ll never watch you play
I’ll never kiss your "owie"
And make it go away
I’ll never see you smile
I’ll never have a choice
I’ll never hear I love you
In my Sophia's voice
I’ll never know your smell
I’ll never feel your love
I’ll never stop hurting
When you’re all I think of
You were taken away so suddenly
Although pain is nothing new
I’ll always have endless “I’ll never’s”
When it comes to you.

with love from Claire xxx.

Claire Inv

November 18, 2009

My Mum, she tells a lot of lies,
She never did before.
But from now until she dies,
She'll tell a whole lot more.

Ask my Mum how she is
And because she can't explain,
She will tell a little lie
Because she can't describe the pain.

Ask my Mum how she is,
She'll say "I'm alright."
If that's the truth, then tell me,
why does she cry each night ?

Ask my Mum how she is,
She seems to cope so well.
She didn't have a choice you see,
Nor the strength to yell.

Ask my Mum how she is,
"I'm fine, I'm well, I'm coping."
For God's sake Mum, just tell the truth,
Just say your heart is broken.

She'll love me all her life,
I loved her all of mine.
But if you ask her how she is,
She'll lie and say she's fine.

I am Here in Heaven.
I cannot hug from here.
If she lies to you don't listen,
Hug her and hold her near.

On the day we meet again,
We'll smile and I'll be bold.
I'll say, "You're lucky to get in here, Mum,
With all the lies you told!"

Louise Beech (Mummy)

November 18, 2009

I had a little Baby Girl,
I never brought you home,
I have no little hands to hold,
No pretty hair to comb,
Now my dreams are all I have,
Of how you would've grown,
The places I'd have taken you,
The LOVE you would have known...

Louise Beech (Mummy)

November 18, 2009

ribute Is For This Weekend

Candles Will Be Lit Again
As Usual On Sunday For Monday


MESSAGE FOR MY FAMILY FROM HEAVEN


To My Dearest Family,
Some things I'd like to say.
But first of all, to let you know,
That I arrived okay.

I'm writing this from heaven.
Here I dwell with God above.
Here, there's no more tears of sadness;
Here is just eternal love.

Please do not be unhappy
Just because I'm out of sight.
Remember that I am with you
Every morning, noon and night.

That day I had to leave you
When my life on earth was through.
God picked me up and hugged me
And He said, "I welcome you.

It's good to have you back again,
You were missed while you were gone.
As for your dearest family,
They'll be here later on.

There's so much that we have to do,
To help our mortal man."
God gave me a list of things,
That he wished for me to do.

And foremost on the list,
Was to watch and care for you.
And when you lie in bed at night
The day's chores put to flight.

God and I are closest to you....
In the middle of the night.
When you think of my life on earth,
And all those loving years.

Because you are only human,
They are bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry:
It does relieve the pain.

Remember there would be no flowers,
Unless there was some rain.
I wish that I could tell you
All that God has planned.

If I were to tell you,
You wouldn't understand.
But one thing is for certain,
Though my life on earth is o'er.

I'm closer to you now,
Than I ever was before.
There are many rocky roads
Ahead of you and many hills to climb;

But together we can do it
By taking one day at a time.
It was always my philosophy
And I'd like it for you too;

That as you give unto the world,
The world will give to you.
If you can help somebody
Who's in sorrow and pain;

Then you can say to God at night......
"My day was not in vain."
And now I am contented....
That my life was worthwhile.

Knowing as I passed along the way
I made somebody smile.
So if you meet somebody
Who is sad and feeling low;

Just lend a hand to pick him up,
As on your way you go.
When you're walking down the street
And you've got Me on your mind;

I'm walking in your footsteps
Only half a step behind.
And when it's time for you to go....
From that body to be free.

Remember you're not going.....
You're coming here to Me.


MISS ME..... BUT LET ME GO

We've known lots of pleasure,
At times endured pain,,
We've lived in the sunshine,
And walked in the rain. ,

But now we're separated .
And for a time apart,,
But I am not alone- ,
You're forever in my heart.,

Death always seems so sudden, ,
And it is always sure,,
But what is often forgotten-,
It is not without a cure.,

There may be times you miss me, ,
I sort of hope you do,,
But smile when you think of me,,
For I'll be waiting here for you.

Now there's many things for you to do,,
And lots of ways to grow,,
So get busy, be happy, and live your life,,
Miss me, but let me go.


MY FRIEND I CARE

Don’t tell me that you understand.
Don’t tell me that you know.
Don’t tell me that I will survive,
How I will surely grow.

Don’t come at me with answers
That can only come from me.
Don’t tell me how my grief will pass,
That I will soon be free.

Accept me in my ups and downs.
I need someone to share.
Just hold my hand and let me cry
And say, “My friend, I care"


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